Boy is it Fall!!!

I Am Going to Build a Photo Studio in my Garage...

I can hear it now. Relieved sighs let out all over the blogisphere. Concern masses are picking up the phone right now, texting or pulling out their trusty carrier pigeon...

"By god Madge! Did you see Michelle's blog? She is pulling herself up by her own boot straps! I think she might break out in a round of "The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow", I tell ya! She is moving forward... she, she, she is going to build her photo studio in her garage! She has gotten through "the hard times""

Well I say, "NOT SO FAST!!!!!"

I would like to say I am great. I would like to say I have found my pace. While I would like say the motivation is my own way of acting out Mary Tyler Moore's scene of throwing her knit cap up in the air out of joy of who she is, I can't. I'm still stuck in the pain of transition. There is another reason I am turning my garage into a photo studio. Less freeing, more due to practicalities. The truth is.... my car doesn't fit into my new garage. I was busy looking at closet space and intact roofing and completely forgot to pull the car into the garage to see if it would fit. I mean whodathunk? Its a relatively new house. I am sure Cory Barton knows Suburbans exist. Why didnt he give the garage just one more foot of parking space for my environmental disaster car? humph.

If I become a successful photographer do I owe it to the SUV? my inventive nature to "make something" out of otherwise wasted space? or perhaps shhhhhhh talent? I dunno. But I have heard that everything happens for a reason. And you know what they say, "Some are born with photo studios and others have photo studios thrust upon them.".

say CHEESE!

Changes...

I've been gone for a while. Life has been changing all around me. I have been changing all around life. I moved a couple weeks ago. Away from my beautiful home and a woefully unattended garden. Away from familiar sounds and long time routines.

For those whom I haven't spoken much to since the dissolution of our common Internet home, my marriage is over and my divorce is coming perhaps by the end of the year. Reasons? Yes there are many.

My husband and I have chosen to stay good friends and parent closely together because truly no matter what happens in the privacy of adults lives its the children who continue to need positive role models and security. I had always hoped to model a successful wife role for them but now that I won't be one I can only hope I (we) can model a successful divorce which demonstrates how people can still treat each other with love and respect even if the happily ever after didn't work. To speak kindly to each other and to still parent with one heart and mind. My husband is a kind and gentle man. I have great hopes of our family's future even though its now broken from the traditional.

Wish me luck as I begin my new life full of unfamiliar sounds and new routines. Wish my children an easy transition. I hear the sun comes up every day regardless of the drama we create in life. I find this equally comforting and very, very scary.